Christmas!

So I spent Christmas watching coupling. Sort of being a lonely puppy right now. And eating sugar as my main food ingredient. I am well aware this is perhaps not good for me but since the second largest intake is alcohol....My roommate is out visiting family and mine is much too far to visit. So I am spending much too much time alone. He has been gone for almost two weeks.

I am a person that needs contact. Always. I need casual contact as well as sexual. Its just who I am. I am lucky to have a set of friends who are ok with that. An example of this is I like to sit really close to people and cuddle in a non sexual way. Or casual touching and hugs during day to day contact. If I don't get touched enough I first get grumpy and then sullen. I am at a point right now where I am sullen.

Contact is also really important in much of Bdsm play. I am in no way an expert on the matter but from what I do know comes from personal experience and talking to others in the scene. When bottoming it is very important to me to almost always be in contact with my top. Especially when I can not see what they are doing. Once I was playing with my Sir and he had me facing away from him and stood up and walked away from me. Then he asked for scissors. I freaked out. I started shaking because he was doing things behind me that I could not feel or sense. Being the good Dom he is he laid a hand on me and petted me till I calmed down. (Turns out it was only to cut some string. ) I also need to be touched after rough play that for me is part of aftercare. I am particularly found of being petted on my head or face.