Post of kink 3

Day 3: How did you discover you were kinky?

        I think this is a deeply personal question. Delves into the idea of self. It's a bit loaded. I think I may have always been kinky but I am not sure if that is my self shaping my past memory. Or if my early life shaped my ideas on sex. 

        I think part of what shaped this idea was what I read. I thoroughly believe that nerd/geeks are attracted to different lifestyles and sexual set ups because of books and comics. They opened my eyes to all the different ways a relationships can be formed, and though I stills saw them as fantasy a little bit of hope was born. 

        I used to play pretend with things that border on the kink. Being a pet was something I constantly played with in my head. It was almost always forced too. Trapped or experimented on. I liked to tie people up or be tied up. But I think those games are rather normal really. What child never tied up their sibling? Then as I began to masturbate my fantasies were never boy and girl sneak off and make out adorably. They were darker. Fucking roughly over a car in an alley. Face fucking till he cums and I swallow. Tied up and fucked by cold machines. Unfeeling and using me. That last one was a favorite. It has oh so many variants. I am pretty sure for years that these were not the normal sexual masturbation fantasies. I new at a certain point that they were not Crazy with a capital C.

.But I also knew I was not on the same level as my friends. I did not think about sex the same. I felt different. And that kept me a virgin for a long time. I was an excellent cock blocker to myself. I would think about it too much and then leave/run away. 
        
      Is was not until I was out of school that I started to let myself think I could actually have those things I always wanted. That I was adult enough, brave enough and smart enough to do it right. I listened to Dan Savage and he told me about fetlife. Thank you Dan Savage from there I took the baby steps to where I am now. 

Sexy work time!

phone sex with sir

So I was laying in bed on my day off. As I often do, like right now. I was horny. I am often horny so no big surprise there. But I started texting Sir. Telling him how hot I was. How much I wanted him, that I wanted to be fucked, hurt, made to cry out in pain and pleasure. I wanted something to get me off. I was teasing I was wanting, but I did not know what I wanted. I pushed him until he ordered me to be naked in my room and with the phone. He was going to call me!

I was so excited! I was dripping wet. My heart was pounding, whole body thrumming. When he called. I tried to sound calm, in control and awesome. I failed. It helped that he ordered me to shut up. To just listen. To do exactly what he said. He made me spank my cunt till I cried out. I had to do it in time to what he told me. Over and over. I was dripping and wiggling wanting to cum so badly. He had me repeat dirty things to him. That I was his cunt. That I need this, I wanted it.

Then came the big thing that just made me moan. He stopped what he was doing and spoke to someone! SOMEONE AT WORK. I thought maybe he went outside or maybe a broom closet. No he just stepped into the hallway. That someone could of came on him at any moment, they could of heard the dirty things he was saying to me. Or maybe hear the things I was saying or doing. I was floored.

He then told me that I was to cum. He was going to go back to work. I masturbated and I came hard. Moaning and screaming, and he kept his phone on the whole time. He heard every little moan, every little thing. When I was done and panting he told me how dirty I was that he heard everything. That he was happy, I was a good girl and that he was not going back to work with a hard on.

So hot I loved it.

How to get me wet at work!

Was going through some of my old emails and came across this. Yum.

Something to think about in your idle moments at the computer: where in your workplace would be the most enticing place for me to fuck you? Any particular spot where your ninja skills would allow us to remain hidden while you knelt to swallow my cum? Any open public place we could sneak into after hours where I could slam the full length of my cock in and out of your tight slippery pussy while you squealed in ecstasy? Or perhaps a place where I would pull your panties down in full view of everyone and spank you as punishment for some transgression? Inquiring minds want to know...

Every once and a while I think about these things in public. How fun is that.

Post of kink 2

Day 2: List your kinks.

Really... I mean this would be something that I feel I would add to all the time. I will just copy and past my current list on fetlife.

Into: dan savage (everything to do with it), "being petted till I fall asleep" (receiving), aftercare (everything to do with it), bare bottom belt spanking (receiving), bare handed spanking (receiving), being bathed and having my hair washed (receiving), being caned (receiving), being told i'm a good girl (receiving), being treated like a beautiful princess but fucked like a dirty little whore (receiving), biting (everything to do with it), candle wax (receiving), cuddling (everything to do with it), cuddling naked (everything to do with it), eddie izzard (watching), face fucking (receiving), feeling wanted and appreciated (receiving), flogging (receiving), hair pulling (receiving), intelligence (everything to do with it), masturbation (everything to do with it), mutual masturbation (everything to do with it), oral sex (everything to do with it), showering together (everything to do with it), sleeping naked (everything to do with it), spanking (receiving), talking dirty (everything to do with it), xkcd (watching).

Curious about: forced masturbation (receiving), "the look" that tells you in no uncertain terms that you have crossed the line and earned a spanking (receiving), anal sex (receiving), ass play, belt spanking (receiving), bondage, cmnf, collar and lead/leash (wearing), dildos, discipline (receiving), impact play (receiving), lingerie, nyotaimori (wearing), pantyhose/stockings, power exchange, remote-control devices (receiving), sensory deprivation (receiving), whips.

Take 2~

~In movie voice over tone~ In the Adventures of Abby and Accidental Arousal!~

Wow first off how awesome is that. So many A's! My name rocks. I could do this all day. Amazing Abby and her Ability to Appear normal in moments of Arousal. Giggle.

So this one time last year I was sitting on my roommates bed while he puts his laundry away. I of course have already done mine and like a puppy left alone have moved into his room to just be near someone. I can be like that I don't like to alone all that often. So he is putting away his clothes when to accent something that he is doing he snaps his belt. It made that nice leather on leather sound. I started but really my whole body reacted. My face must of done some sort of glaze over because when I looked at him again he had a very odd look on his face. There was a much too long pause and then he went back to folding. Now two things to note on this. One this is again much before he knew I was kinky and two this is almost a year before I was spanked with a belt for sex. Odd... Yeah adventure time.