Not dead. Also new want!

Are these not the most amazing thing! I need these n my body.

WISH LIST (always on update)

Things I REALLY want!

Batman Black Lace-up bikini (it glows in the dark!)

http://www.torrid.com/torrid/Intimates/Panties//Batman+Black+Lace-Up+Bikini-533580.jsp

Ruffle Garter Belt with Ribbon 

http://www.hipsandcurves.com/plus-size-lingerie/p-13357-plus-size-ruffle-garter-belt-with-ribbon-garter-belts.aspx -OWN IT!~ 12/01/12

Nude And Black Lace And Piping Shaping Slip

http://www.torrid.com/torrid/Intimates/Shapewear//Nude+And+Black+Lace+And+Piping+Shaping+Slip-594565.jsp ON ORDER!!! (06/23/12) Bought! Pictures to follow 

Lace Pumps

http://www.hipsandcurves.com/Plus-Size-Lingerie/p-373-plus-size-satin-lace-pumps-shoes.aspx

Savoir Faire Stretch Lace Garter Belt

http://www.hipsandcurves.com/plus-size-lingerie/p-14516-plus-size-savoir-faire-stretch-lace-garter-belt-garter-belts.aspx

This one next.--->Short Cinderella Petticoat

http://www.hipsandcurves.com/plus-size-lingerie/p-14820-plus-size-short-cinderella-petticoat-petticoats-knickers.aspx

Lust Lace Garter Tank with Ribbon

http://www.hipsandcurves.com/plus-size-lingerie/p-13344-plus-size-love-lust-lace-garter-tank-with-ribbon-lingerie.aspx Own it! 01/23/13 Metronerd bought it for me for my Birthday. 

                                                             
Garter Belt with Lace Heart

http://www.hipsandcurves.com/plus-size-lingerie/p-13388-plus-size-garter-belt-with-lace-heart-garter-belts.aspx

Things I would like.

Parisian Style Floor Length Skirt

http://www.hipsandcurves.com/Plus-Size-Lingerie/p-255-plus-size-parisian-style-floor-length-skirt-default.aspx

Victorian Bustle Skirt

http://www.hipsandcurves.com/Plus-Size-Lingerie/p-12076-plus-size-victorian-bustle-skirt-apparel.aspx

Caged Back Plus Size Panty

http://www.hipsandcurves.com/plus-size-lingerie/p-12030-plus-size-caged-back-panty-panties.aspx

Halter Chemise 3 Piece Set

http://www.hipsandcurves.com/plus-size-lingerie/p-13816-plus-size-3-piece-halter-chemise-with-stretch-lace-cups-and-side-panels-lingerie.aspx

Short All Over Stretch Lace Robe

http://www.hipsandcurves.com/plus-size-lingerie/p-13614-plus-size-short-all-over-stretch-lace-robe-robes.aspx

Trumpet Tulle Skirt

http://www.hipsandcurves.com/plus-size-lingerie/p-11239-plus-size-trumpet-tulle-skirt-apparel.aspx

Cuban Heel Sheer Lycra Thigh Highs

http://www.hipsandcurves.com/plus-size-lingerie/p-272-plus-size-cuban-heel-sheer-lycra-thigh-highs-hosiery.aspx

Things that I want but are too expensive.

Vivienne Steel Boned Underbust Corset

http://www.hipsandcurves.com/plus-size-lingerie/p-13038-plus-size-vivienne-steel-boned-underbust-corset-leather-patent.aspx

Scarlett Steel Boned Corset

http://www.hipsandcurves.com/plus-size-lingerie/p-13421-plus-size-scarlett-steel-boned-corset-corsets-bustiers.aspx

Bellatrix Steel Boned Leather Corset

http://www.hipsandcurves.com/Plus-Size-Lingerie/p-11366-plus-size-bellatrix-steel-boned-leather-corset-leather-patent.aspx

Little things.

Sometimes its the little things that really boost myself esteem. Make me feel sexy, desired and loved.

"mmm you smell good, mumble.. I like the smell of your sweat." When my daddydom woke up next to me. He was very tired and sleepy. I was very awake, and had been for a while. I was just enjoying being next to him. Feeling him close, smelling him and feeling held close.

I have always been insecure about my smell. Its the little things that me me shocked at how loved I am.

Baths.

Baths are so very awesome. I am sitting in my apartment with my big purple robe on relaxing. I had all these ideas in the bath and now I am too lazy to.

Me.

“Smart girls are the over thinkers, the insecure ones, the different ones. They know what the real world is like. They analyze every little thing in life. Why? To avoid getting hurt. To find happiness. They stay up at night trying to think about every possible situation to get through all the problems. They think too much. They trust fewer people. Their insecurity proves their respect toward themselves. Of course they try to live away from a drama-filled life. Smart girls know their worth. Now those are the ones worth keeping by your side.”
— Unknown

To be desired.

I was making out with my Daddydom and I shuddered. Not in that "oh no"  way. But in that way that my body does sometimes when I am so turned on I don't know what to do. When I am about to orgasm. When I am wet and wanting and begging for more. When its like I am so aroused my body does not how to react. Its not something I can control. It just happens. He looked at me with this fire of want in his eyes. I know that seems silly but really he has this intense look sometimes, especially when he hurts me. He told me that he loves it when I shudder. But it was the way he said it. Like it aroused him so much. I loved it. I made me both blush and drip.

Compliment.

I was once given an awesome compliment from Phonesexman. He said I was a sweater girl. I was very confused by that. When I asked for him to explain he told me that I am that type of girl that everyone looks past, that I don't pop out. But if someone takes a moment to know me they find that I am amazing. That I am a sex goddess, funny, smart and sweet. It was so touching.

I am have been feeling lately like my two world are colliding. My kinky world and my vanilla world. Its like one group is so understanding of difference and one is not. grr...

Orgy!

So I love orgies. More on this to come.

Not big enough.

This is one picture in a series that I really like. Sadly this is a TINY picture. Which really makes me sad. I am going to look out for a better picture. I like the helplessness of this picture. The rope tie is both pretty and functional. I like that she is both dressed and so exposed in the now very open kimono. Her head tilted to the side in that begging way, wanting it so much and yet not. I love how she is so open to his hands. How he is just reaching out and taking what he wants. In short I want this picture to happen to me.