Baths.

Baths are so very awesome. I am sitting in my apartment with my big purple robe on relaxing. I had all these ideas in the bath and now I am too lazy to.

Worth it?

So a couple weeks ago I was doing a particularly intense scene/sex with my Daddydom. I was tied up, gagged, hit, caressed, fucked and kissed silly. It was wonderful and over the top awesome. At one point though he was talking dirty to me. Which I may say he does so well. But in the middle he threw me off. He told me that he had to this stuff, that he wanted to do this to me because he was competing for me. I was thrown and wanted to assure him that I was his, that he did not need too. That I would come back to him. My eyes must of gone wide as I took myself out of the scene to tell him this, while ball gagged. He then went on that I needed to realize that I deserve to be competed for. That I should know that I am worth it. That I am special and that he loves me. It made me want to cry. (Which I tend to do sometimes)

He then went on to do more dirty evil things to me. That I loved and came from.

Weeks later though I am still thinking on this. Part of me knows that yes I am awesome. I am a Win for someone out there. But there is still a very large part of me that is built on years of self esteem issues. That part tells me that I am hyping myself up. That I am not worth that.

I keep trying to kick that part of my mind in the face, we will see how that goes. Right now I feel wonderful, sexy, wanted and loved. Kiss for my Daddydom.

That one time I slept with a jerk.

This is a quick one. Because is was a mistake.

So this one time I was horny. Surprise!
 I chatted with a guy from Collarme, we talked on the phone.
He seemed nice.
He seemed cute!
His name was Jae.
I went on a date with Jae, just walking.
Then I got bold.
Too bold.
I fucked him, he thought he was a dom.
He was not.
I topped the shit out of him. Made him beg, made him cum, made him cry out.
It was fun.
He loved it.
Then I told him he had to take me out for ice-cream. Between ice-cream and relaxing the conversation takes a left turn. He tells me that he thinks gay and lesbians should not be allowed to adopt and that planned parenthood was created to keep minorities from reproducing and that now is still evil.
I blew up.
I screamed, I shook with anger at myself.
I was a slut, in a bad way. An idiot.
I let my spirit touch his! Like mix with me.
I kicked him out of my house.
My roommate was worried about me, but did not handle it in a sex positive way.
Jae latter contacted me and asked for a second chance. I told him that I would be fucking him just as good as I did, anytime he wanted. If he was not such ass. That most happy sluts like me are pro-gay rights and pro-planned parenthood.
So. The end.

Sexy work time!

phone sex with sir

So I was laying in bed on my day off. As I often do, like right now. I was horny. I am often horny so no big surprise there. But I started texting Sir. Telling him how hot I was. How much I wanted him, that I wanted to be fucked, hurt, made to cry out in pain and pleasure. I wanted something to get me off. I was teasing I was wanting, but I did not know what I wanted. I pushed him until he ordered me to be naked in my room and with the phone. He was going to call me!

I was so excited! I was dripping wet. My heart was pounding, whole body thrumming. When he called. I tried to sound calm, in control and awesome. I failed. It helped that he ordered me to shut up. To just listen. To do exactly what he said. He made me spank my cunt till I cried out. I had to do it in time to what he told me. Over and over. I was dripping and wiggling wanting to cum so badly. He had me repeat dirty things to him. That I was his cunt. That I need this, I wanted it.

Then came the big thing that just made me moan. He stopped what he was doing and spoke to someone! SOMEONE AT WORK. I thought maybe he went outside or maybe a broom closet. No he just stepped into the hallway. That someone could of came on him at any moment, they could of heard the dirty things he was saying to me. Or maybe hear the things I was saying or doing. I was floored.

He then told me that I was to cum. He was going to go back to work. I masturbated and I came hard. Moaning and screaming, and he kept his phone on the whole time. He heard every little moan, every little thing. When I was done and panting he told me how dirty I was that he heard everything. That he was happy, I was a good girl and that he was not going back to work with a hard on.

So hot I loved it.

Tabasco Sauce, not the best of lubes.

So my Sir was/is a bit of a sadist. Not as much as My Daddy but still likes to hurt me. Or rather I think he more got off on the humiliation of hurting me. Which is still hot. Once on coming over her had me lay, as he did. My ass in the air looking away from him on the bed. He started rubbing my ass. Making me moan and almost beg for it. I have wanted more anal from him, but he was waiting. My Sir was a bad Dom in that we did not communicate right, we had different needs emotionally and he was emotionally manipulative in a bad way. BUT he was good at fucking me. He pushed me just right. Made me squirm, cry, beg and drip. This time though he was fingering my ass and it started to burn. Started be really uncomfortable but not painful. Then he had me spend a good amount of time blowing him while he fingered my pussy. (not with Tabasco) Now know that I did not know what he put on me till after he came in my mouth. We were laying while he panted and and I asked to shower. It was only then that I found out.

So although this may sound odd, It was super hot. The not knowing was hot. The surprise, the controlled fear. I love it.

Sir snippett.

Do you ever notice its the little things your remember? The things that make a future masturbation session memory are small. Not the over reaching what was done or when or how. But the little things that just sort of shot though you with the hotness of it.

I was thinking about this one time when I played with Sir. He had a wonderful habit of spanking me with his belt. He also had a very particular way of wanting me to lay ass in the air, hands spread out just so. Sometimes he liked me to reach back and spread myself open for him. Mostly I think for watching me do it. For me submitting to it. And strangely I liked the ritual of it. I needed him to talk me. I always need that with Ds. LOTS of talking. But this once he has me lay on the floor waiting for him. Unable to see what he was doing I knew he was getting undressed and even in that I grew wet. Then he wrapped his belt around my neck, using that to pull me up. I remember gasping and whimpering all at once. Unsure what the proper response was, unsure of my own thoughts on it. My mind warring with the safety of the act and the hotness of it. He used that to pull me what must of only been 3 feet at most of my hands and knees. At the edge of the bed I moved to sit up thinking that was what he wanted. It was not. He spanked me hard and pushed me back down. Even now I feel my pussy react to the thought of that.

I have used that moment many times hand on my clit, eyes closed. I hope I never forget those little things.

My first Play party!

So My Evil Twin threw a play party and invited me. I was so excited and scared at the same time. I wanted so badly to be a good girl. Not only that but this was going to be my friends from book club and their friends. I wanted to show I was "cool" and wanted them to like me. Wanted is not a strong enough word. I needed to know I would be liked. But really since I was aware that play parties were something that could happen. I have wanted to play. I mean how many fantasies did I build up about doing anything like this. But I was shook but this real intense need to be thought of a nice, good perhaps is the better word.

So the night did not start well I was late. Not only was I late, but I was mildly lost. I had gotten on at the wrong stop on the busy. (Why are there so many Church streets in the greater Boston area!) I was still in good spirits. But after nearly 45 minutes of waiting in the snow I decided to go home. My phone was dying and I was suddenly afraid I would not be good enough. I called to let Evil know. She did not like this idea and sent a white knight to save me. I am glad I did not walk I was still very far away.

On walking in the room was oddly quiet. Not a party, a couple people were milling around. There was very yummy food out. I was worried that I had somehow come in a group of people who did not like a stranger in their mist. I turned on my charm. Which I can do quite well even when I am nervous. Plus I was fully clothed. I made new friends., lasting friends, that night. I was even invited to share a room with people at the fetish flea. I was very excited.

There was casual touching and cuddling but nothing really intense. I was comfortable and a little aroused. I was given a nice long back rub. Now I am not sure its been said on this blog yet but I am a back rub slut. I will let most anyone give me a back rub. I will almost always take my shirt off too. Which I did. Topless I am very comfortable with. I got to watch a mild spanking of a friend.

Then Miss Jack and her new Boy toy came. She instantly rose the level of energy of the party. She was all smiles and black curls. It was hard not to caught up in her. She is not my type of girl for attraction but I knew I wanted to be her friend. She and her boy went and got dolled up. Evil then tied both them up to each other. Their hands were intertwined and were looking into each other eyes. There were moments I had a hard time watching while they were flogged. Because it seemed so intimate. It was fun to watch but more than anything it made me itch with want. I loved being flogged by Salem. I wanted it so badly. I knew i was wet with arousal but my whole body wanted that relaxation that comes with intense flogging.

After Miss Jack and her Boy were done. I got up the courage to ask my Twin if she wanted to flog me. She said yes. I was ecstatic, but wanted to seem cool still. I kept my undies on and knelt on the edge of the couch. I was breathing heavy and I knew it. I was also unsure what noise I should be allowed to make. Could I act as aroused as I was? What was the correct etiquette?

She used a real thuddy toy. I knew I was trying to not to whimper and moan too much. When she knelt down against my body rubbing me up and down to ask how I was doing. I could not help it. I attacked kissed her. I pulled her like I was hungry, that I was thirsty and she was water. She was surprised but not angry. I realized later that this was my first actually flirting with her. I had secretly had a crush but had not said or acted on it in anyway. *Blush*

She continued until I was warm and fuzzy brained. Each stroke of the flog hit hard. Was a thud again my skin. When we were done I needed to be touched like I usually do. I cuddled up to her and felt so subbie to here it surprised me. I honestly had never felt this way about a girl. I normally mildly top women.

Eventually everyone left except Evil, me , Miss Jack and her boy. I am not sure how asked but I asked. And am still amazed that I did. But I asked to go down on her. So that Boy toy could watch. He said he had never seen a girl/girl in person. And how many have really? I slide down to the flood and began to lick and suck at her wet cunt. I used to fingers to really pound away at her. It was so much fun. She made adorable noises that made me want to kiss and fuck her. So I did.

After that we got to watch some fun playing with Miss Jack and her boy. Which oddly ended with my Twin and I watching from the floor as they ground against each other. Clothes on. Also by oddly I mean hot. Evil had me cuddle up against her. She started to say very naughty very evil things in my ear. About how she would force his cock down my throat. Hold me against his as she fucked me with a strap on. I HAD to masturbate. It was a very short time before a had an orgasm. On my way down from that high I realized I had the rooms attention. I blushed so hard I felt my face heat up.

After a little clean up I got to cuddle with my Twin for an hour before it was 6am! That's right my dear audience I did an all nighter. Be impressed. Then I grabbed the first bus in the am and went home.

And that was my first play party.

Lots to say,

Don't want to say it. My Sir dropped me. I am both hurt and angry. It was because I told the fucking truth and should of lied. God damn me and him. WORST Birthday present ever. Grumble, he is not allowed to be so possessive if he can go for a month with out paying attention to me at all. As much as I like playing at being used I am NOT a toy to be fucked and then tossed aside. Damn the sex was good though. We were getting ready to get together and he honestly asked if I had fucked around with someone else. I told him that I had played but had not done any penis in vagina which started us fighting about sex. Growl he makes me so angry!

Pictures

So I have always sort of like the idea of having some rather raunchy naked pictures of myself. To have to look back on when I am older. Thing is its much harder than it looks to take a picture that looks decent. Or not fuzzy. I have not given up though! No! I have not. And before its asked I am not posting any here. Sorry internet.

That being said I did try with my sir. He took a couple close ups of my spread ass and pussy lips. Its something really rather different looking to see it from that angle. Different than in the mirror. We also tried to take a couple picture of my mouth around his cock. So though I think in concept it looks really sexy. I sort of look a little drunk. Well not drunk, well fucked perhaps. So that was my adventure with naked pictures.

Lets do the time warp again!

So this story is a little old and is from near the first of the month.

I almost feel like putting a disclaimer on this one. It is significantly rougher and kinkier. But this is an adult only website that like all of 5 people maybe read.

So this may be a little disjointed. Since a good amount of it was written last night after my Sir went home. So yesterday was my day off. I must admit I had it in my mind that I wanted to have sex. So I was little forward in my texts with my sir.

Me: Thinking about you. Hope your work is good. Want your hands on me.

Sir: Smile

Me: Nips at your ear. Wish I could have you this afternoon. I would love if you ran me through my paces.

Sir: I bet you would love that!

Me:I would and you know it.

Sir:Wink

Me: Silly sir, Kiss.

Sir:Not sure about tonight.

Me: Aw ok. Also just so you know I want to cover you in little kisses. Then I reach for you cock.

Sir:Ok

**Insert a significant amount of time where I read about half of the leather daddy and the femme. **

Me: Just so you know I am horny right now. Like intensly. I can feel it pounding in my pussy. Want your power over me.

Sir:What time is your roomie gone?

Me: From like 8-10.

*Insert some more time where I wrote him a email listing out my wants and needs in this pet/dom game we are playing. I also tacked on a little dirty story.

Sir:I read your email. If I come over. I WILL USE YOU VERY ROUGHLY AND YOU DARE NOT TO SAY NO TO ME. IF YOU DO I WILL JUST LEAVE. IF YOU PULL AWAY I WILL JUST LEAVE. Your call.

Sir:I want my filthy fucking cunt tonight. Is this who you will be for me tonight?

**When I read caps I hear it in my head as yelling. This this line made me put the phone down and walk around for a moment. Did I really want this? Was I as excited as I thought I was? My heart was pounding and I could feel my body responding to the idea of seeing my sir and him wanting to play rough. I was almost sure that he was going quite over the top in his text as he had said very similar things in the past and always just took care of me. Its part of the play. So I did, I texted him back.***

Me:yes sir. What do you want me to do to prepare?

Sir:Clean out your ass! I want it super clean that I could fuck your ass and then shove it in your mouth and back and forth.

Me: I will do my best sir, you know I am still tight. My heart is pounding right now.

Sir:Tight is good. That means I might have to take your ass by force.

Me:Whimper.

Sir:Get your head right because tonight, you're going to be my personal fuck toy.

Me: yes sir, if we are playing this rough I want a safe word. Damn you have me thrumming with energy.

Sir:You tell me what the safe word is!

Sir:I rather you not say a damn fucking word. I want to gag you and tied you up!

Me: Whimper yes sir. Then Phoenix is the word and the double tap means I need to breath. I am ready to be naughty for you.

Sir:I want to place an ad and invite strangers over to come over and fuck your pussy until you're sore!

Sir:Your going to feel like a naughty fucking cunt tonight so get ready!

Me: Yes sir, I will do my best!

Sir:You MUST do one thing for me. When I arrive the only things you are to say to me is repeat the safe word and the double tap means you need to breath.

Me: Yes sir.

Sir:Other than whimpering, say nothing to me and listen for directions. Also have your thong neatly folded for me and present them to me respectfully!

Sir:Don't Fuck this up!

Sir:Have your camera ready on your night stand, OK?

Sir:The next time you text me will be to tell me your friends are about to leave and then when your home alone.

Sir:btw when you say yes sir capitalize the Y and S.

Sir:Moving forward its to be Yes Sir , No Sir. You will be trained to address me properly starting tonight!

Sir:Mistakes will be dealt with in a manner in which you will not enjoy!

Sir:Good little Cunt.

At this point Still had almost 3 hours to wait. It was torturous! I was practically thrumming with energy. But I kept myself busy. I made a light dinner for me and the house mate. I cleaned the kitchen. Moved the trash to be picked up and took out our trash. Cleaned my room and charged my camera. I chatted with my roomie and then we watched Castle together. Which was a great episode by the way. After my roommate went out for drinks I texted my Sir to let him know I was free. He told me he was down the street and would be over in 2 min. Now I know that its silly but I was touched that he had come early and was just waiting on me. It made me feel wanted.

I met him at the door naked. After some light kissing and him pulling at my nipples which was used to mostly direct me the way he wanted. I wanted intense kissing but he kept me from that. Holding me back, when I had so much energy already built up. He told me to drop to my knees and paw at his cock. Yes, paw. Which I found out quickly when I tried to get his cock out. He used my ponytail to pull me back and repeated what he wanted. His cock then was so very trapped in jeans. Too many layers!

I whimpered and kissed at the fabric wanting to touch and play but not wanting to talk because of before. I made sure he knew from the noises I was making that I was frustrated and wanted him. He was petting my head and sort of slapping the side of my face. Really lightly mostly just for touch or light sound. He then told me if I could get at his cock with only mouth I could have it. Zippers are evil and near impossible. I tried and almost cried when I could not get it out. He stood there in jeans and belt looking down at me with power in his eyes. It was so hard. I was so frustrated. I finally started just whimpering with little "pleases" under my breath. Till he helped me unzip his pants a little, And it was still not enough. I lipped and tried to bite at it to get more. He took pity on me mumbling to be careful about my teeth. I was so relived when he did this. He pulled out his cock all the way.

But then took his hand and made tight around my ponytail. He told me sternly that I had to be slow for him. Very slow for him. And all I wanted was to shove his cock in my throat to feel him deep. I wanted to gag and mummer around his cock. His hands in my hair keep me from going to fast. Often keeping his cock JUST out of reach. so I was whimpering. Then he had me rise and grabbing my ass told me to go stand in my room. He kept his hands wandering over my body

Then as discussed earlier he had me give me him a pair of my sexy thongs. I am not sure why. Since he did not keep them. But then he gave me a nice little pet. I melted in his touch. I love when he pets me.

He ordered me to get on the bed. he has this position he like with me facing away from him my ass up in the air my face down to the bed. My legs a little spread and my pussy pushed out a little. I moved just as he likes and he ran his hands over my body making me shiver with want. As I did and he started to spank me. Hard. It was great. I was almost to the point of tears. Then he started prodding and poking at my pussy and ass, pulling at my pussy lips. I fantasies about this man's hands and what they do to my pussy.

My Sir is also really good at talking me up. I like how he often makes me repeat what I am, "His cunt." He went on to tell me that I have I have been a very naughty girl. That I have let other men fuck my pussy and that its his! and I should not let other people use my fuck hole. I must admit that this small talk has spawned MANY fantasies. So many.

So I am facing away from him and can not see what he is doing. I know he is getting something out. And he tells me that he has made me something. That I don't deserve his cock because I am have been so bad. He has me reach back and pull back my pussy lips. Then he slides this HUGE something against my pussy. I am shocked. What could it be. Why is it so big. I try and reach to touch and he taps my hand telling me to be good. Then he slide the length down my pussy lips, It just kept going. In my head the only thing I could think it could be was a like bedpost. Then he slide it into me. It was so big and just pushed all the way back. Filling me whole. My whole body shuddered. The head of it was a bigger not so as he pumped it in and out the sensation was intense. Then he pulled it out and pushed me to where he wanted me. He took the toy which turns out is about 10 inches long and a little over 2 around in the thickest part. He had made it by winding up a thick electrical wire. He slide his cock into my cunt and just started rough. No build up just hands tight in my hair using me and fucking me. I was so wet I was dripping. Then when he started to get close he pulled out and had me go down on him.

He moved me so I was on my knees and he could order me to do just as he wanted. His hand at my ass spreading me open. Then he started to roughly fuck me with that big toy as I sucked his cock. I was whimpering and crying out around his cock. I had to take a couple moment breaks when it was too much. My face wet with spit and precum I had to ask him to stop my pussy was clenching so hard around the toy that it was starting to hurt. He popped it out and told me to lay on my side my head near the edge of the bed.

This is my new favorite position for getting face fucked. As he pounded into my face and throat I masturbated till I orgasmed. It did not take long. Not much longer after he gripped my face to his body and blew his own load deep in my throat.

With an intense orgasm done by both we laid and cuddled. I got pets and was very happy. He gave me the toy and told me that I was not allowed to use it alone for penetration that I could only grind with it if I wanted.

Need to get laid

Why do people want relationships with me! I want sex. Sigh. My Sir has been ignoring me for a couple weeks now. I am not sure if its on purpose or because he is really busy. I want to give him the benefit of the doubt but it still hurts when he does not pay attention to me. I know I am like a puppy I need to be paid attention too. So I dating a new guy he is really very sweet. A little too sweet at times, I am not sure how to react when people treat me like a princess. I must admit though I could get used to it. We will call him, The Salesman. Well I was hinting at sex with him and he told me he does not have casual sex. What! But your male! I wanted to whine. Which I am fully aware is very sexist. But I like sex and Sir has been ignoring me and I am done with Metronerd and ...whine... So I pointed out that I do and he responded that he has to feel like he really likes someone first. Sigh

Back to masturbation.

New Toy! Birthday Present!

So my friend the phonesexman bought me a new toy fro my Birthday. Which was very nice since really it was the only thing I got before my birthday. My family loves me but we are all really bad at actually sending presents on time. Like really really bad.

Toy!

Now I am well aware that this toy is not involved in the collation against toxic toys. I will write more on this soon.

So he got me a Doc Johnson blue Jellie. Its.. well blue! its part of the raging hardons simline anal series. Which means I am going to get to use it in my ass some day! Hrmm something to work my way up to. Its 7 inches and is the " ass play ballsy..." Which I think it mean that is has a good large flared base so it does not get lost.

*Note- When playing with anal toys it is VERY important that you use something with a large flared base. The exception to this may be anal beads which are made for that reason.*

This one has a particularly thin shape. Phonesexman got it for me because I am not really a size queen and also when he first met me I had a hard time comfortably getting two fingers in my pussy. I can get really tight.

So while I did have some really hot fun time fucking my pussy with this guy, on the phone with my superhero. I did find that actually I really love this toy in my mouth. I know I am really oral but I think I love this toy so much because its nice and bendy and thin. I have found I can shove all 7 inches down my throat. This makes me choke and gag a little but its so hot and I love it.

More on this review later as I start to use it more.

Should I go to the Flea?

Kinky flea? I mean I really want to go but I don't know if I can afford it. The cost is only 30 dollars a day which I think I can wing if I am a good girl. And let it be know that I am nothing but a good girl. So I think I will go and maybe buy a book or a flogger. I should really make a budget of how much I am allowed to spend so I don't end up with only 50 dollars in my account again. That was a terrifying two weeks.

Shaving

So to shave or not shave your pussy?

So I have been shaving my pussy for a while now. I tried waxing twice. Horrible idea. It was my own fault though I tried doing it at home with a kit. The first time I did not even trim. Poor choice on my part.

The first thing to remember is to do this in the shower. The hot water softens the hair, opens the pores, and makes it much easier to shave. I don't like to use any lotion or shaving cream it causes the razor to clog up. Most every thing I have read about shaving says to go with the grain of the hair. And really if its your first time you should. If its been a while I go with the grain. But then after I like to carefully go against the grain. It causes a close shave and feels great. You have to be VERY careful near the inner labia. I am well aware how sensitive I am down there. So normally I am very careful but yesterday for some really dumb reason I nicked myself. Just barely, but it hurt so badly! And like all small little razor cuts it bled more than it should. So no more masturbation for me for a while. Feel free to pity me.

Acousticophile

So I am not positive it thats the right word for me. Its someone who is sexually aroused by sounds. I personally need a lover who talks, moans and whimpers for me. I especially love dirty talk or dominating talking. This may be why since finding out that I could I have loved phone sex. I have also been lucky that I have been able to make friends with some amazing people who also love phone sex. One such man is my Phonesexman! think of it more like a superhero call. I have been talking with him for almost a year and half. Its not often and varies on our ability and how much sex we are getting in real life. But it is so fun. I adore him and we have become rather casual friends considering that he regularly hears me moaning and begging on the phone. Its an odd relationship since I have never met him and we don't much really plan on meeting up. He just loves the sounds I make and I love what he does and the sounds he makes. Its a nice give and take.

One of the fun things I have done with him is do a couple three way calls with another girl. This was he can play out a lesbian three way fantasy. Its really fun. I have dommed a girl over the phone which is a lot more fun that it sounds.

Do as I say not as I do.

Had a play date with my sir that involved a belt and beer bottle. I feel inclined to personally point out the dangers of using glass bottles as a sex toy. Anything that is breakable like that could be broken in sex. PC muscles are much stronger than you may think. I once broke a rabbit dildo with mine and a little rough play. NO one wants broken glass anyone near that part of your body. Thus the do as I say not as I do. Because though I realize how unsafe and perhaps stupid it was of me I found it so incredibly hot. Overwhelmingly so.

So my Sir called and told me to be completely naked at the door. I must admit this made my heart pound. I was naked right away walking around my house. Cleaning and trying to make the place look perfect. Which was silly because he does not really come over to pay attention to my house. I kept looking at the clock thinking surely it would be any moment he would knock at my door. When he did I bounce up to him, full of things to say, to kiss and touch him. I had wrapped a blanked around me to keep warm. He just calmly walked came in and said, "you are supposed to be naked" I dropped my blanket quickly. But I still got a slap on the ass for it.

He had me go to the bedroom and get on the bed in the position he likes best. Which involves me on my hands and knees. Arms spread out in front of me reaching for the wall. It makes it so my head is pushed down onto the bed and my ass up in the air. He had me this time reach back and spread my pussy lips open so he could have a good look at me. He took off his belt and laid it across my back. Letting me know what was to come as well as making me think about his power over me there. Since I was already aroused it did not take much touching on his part till I was dripping wet. Which is really embarrassing. There I am laying whimpering while he looks deep inside me, probing and spreading me open for his eyes.

After a little caressing he took the belt off my body and starting to lay into me. Slapping at my ass, my thighs, my calves and my feet. It was my feet that were particularly painful. I started to cry out and her stopped quickly reached up and grabbed my hair told me I had better not fucking make a sound. It was so very hard not to make a moan at that. Despite his warning I could not help whimpering as he continued to use his belt on me.

He paused in his slapping and running a hand over my red skin he reached for the beer bottle. I could not see any of this. I was my face to the bed almost in tears. All I felt was him spreading me open with a cold hard object. That moment was surreal. I knew what it was. I felt so very naughty, so wrong, so used and it made me so hot. He moved it in and out of me, mostly just the pleasure of seeing me fucked by it. I loved how knowing he was getting hard by controlling and using me this way. I tightened up though. My pussy convulsing a little and he had to stop.

He laid down on my bed and let me blow him as he played with my pussy. First fingering me then bottle fucking me again. It got to the point that I could barely give a decent blow job and was more just moaning around his cock. He came in my mouth and had me swallow him as I played with myself till I orgasmed.

Then we layed and cuddled more. It was great. I do love playing with him.

Vanilla can be yummy too.

So as you read this blog you may figure out that I am into kinky sex. But that is not to mean that I don't enjoy vanilla sex. Though I must admit I was actually pleasantly surprised when I found that I do enjoy regular sex. That may sound odd. But I jumped right into kinky sex, lost my virginity in a threesome. Which was awesome don't get me wrong. But it means up till Corvallis I had only had kinky partners. I was very happy when I found I was not so twisted sexually that I could still get off to vanilla sweet sex. Corvallis really made me quite happy and I miss him. I would of actually started a relationship with him if I had stayed on his side of the US. And this is a big thing for me to say since the idea of calling someone my boyfriend scares me. Actually just writing that was bad.

But moving on. I recently got to play with Metronerd and we had some really fun morning sex. Morning sex is great. Actually I adore being woke up by a hard cock, or better yet by fingers slide into my pussy. Yes morning sex rocks. Not to mention there is something incredibly nice waking up naked next to someone. So I woke up next to Metronerd and after just a little snuggling, my part I assure you, we had nice vanilla sex. The type that after leaves you warm and wet after. Actually the part that stands out the most was how much Metronerd came. So hot. After cuddling I snuggled down his body for little blow job and climbed on top. After grinding and riding his cock for a while he told me he wanted to watch me cum. So he handed me my toy and I quickly orgasmed next to him. I turned to help him and he finished. And wow, he shot so far. It was the first I have ever seen in person cum that much in real life. I must admit that I have sometimes in porn considered that cum shot to be a little bit of a lie; especially if the cock was off screen. But after watching this I am sure there is a little truth in it. Then we cuddled and took a hot shower and with that snow thats starting up thats just what a girl could want.

Abby got a present!

Wrist restraints. So Metronerd got me a Christmas present last night. A pair of these really pretty wrist restraints. They are soft yet sturdy. I absolutely love them. I have not actually gotten the chance to use them yet. I opened my present then sort of went back to the couch to watch a movie. Where he then took control. So hot when he does that. He first had me blow him, something that I love to do with his cock. Not only does he taste yummy but the size of its perfect of making myself push that little bit into discomfort. Which to me is hot. He had me ride him for a while on the couch. I felt very naughty for two reasons. One there is a window right in front of me when I did this. Two I had a conversation with the Roomie earlier jokily about sex on said couch. And that I should not leave stains with my nymphomaniac ways. He had suggested a towel, but really sex on couches is not always planned out. Then he turned me around and fucked me from behind. Till I was actually worried about sound, the wall next to the couch is actually the entry way of the who apartment complex. Sound carries VERY well.

We went to the bed instead. Sex was hard and fast, I wanted him to fuck me hard. Begged him to; and he obliged. In the end he pulled out and had me use my vibrator on myself so he could watch me fuck my pussy till I came. It was so fun panting I turned to help him and he came. It always still amazes me to watch me cum hard. I mean its like a water gun sometimes. It shot out so far! Very fun to watch. We calmed down and I demanded cuddles.

A little rough play

So last night my Sir can to play. When I texted him to let him know I had some free hours he told me we would come over and that I should be ready for him. I must admit I got rather giddy and rushed home. I cleaned up a little and waited, he continued texting me. The ones that really stand out were that I should shower and be as naked as possible when I meet him at the door (I wore my robe open) and that I should eat a really light dinner because he wanted to use me roughly and did not want to make me throw up. That second part made my head spin. My Sir is a bit of a Sadist. But he is also so incredibly sweet and caring to me. He has never hurt me with out warming me up and always ramps it up so very slowly. I really enjoy what he does and found myself really craving a rough spanking. I am a little afraid to tell him because I am also scared of it.

He came over and I greeted him with a naked kiss. My stomach was full of butterflies and I wobbled a little. And though I was very ready to just jump into playing; my Sir is good to me and does a good amount of preplay and aftercare. Something I have found that I really need. So he had me lay naked next to him and cuddle while he pulled and twisted on my nipples. I relaxed into his touch easily and felt myself both melt into him just as much as my arousal rose. He told me he wants to tie my nipples up and pull them while he fucks me or tie up my whole breast tight enough it leaves marks. Just saying these things while playing with my nipples makes me so wet and want him. He had me wriggling and begging. At one point I talked back in some sarcastic way, I really still don't remember what I said. But he took it out on my ass hard. Left a nice little red mark. I must admit I wanted more. I really want him to leave a mark on me. He had me give him a long blow job, slowly. Which for me is strangely hard to do. I want to slide that cock deep into my throat. But he kept me going so very slow. When he had me move so he could finger me while still blowing him he was shocked at how wet I was. And truthfully I was a little amazed too. I was so wet that it was actually dripping out of my pussy.

So I think he changed his mind with what he wanted. Because he has been very forward that he wants to beat my ass with his belt. Instead he had me lay on my back, head to the side. He fucked my face and had me blow him as he fingered me. This position is so very fun because my cunt is left open for him and at the same time I get a cock shoved into my throat. I was grunting and moaning around his cock. Something I know he loves. With him its always a very wet blow job too, lots of spit and precum on my lips and face. I think this may because he often likes to pull his cock out and rub it on my face. He also really likes me licking and sucking on his balls, I adore the sounds he makes when I do this. He has mentioned that he wants me to lick his ass. I am hesitant but feel that I can trust him, so we will see.

While I was doing this he started really finger fucking me. Hooking his finders just right. When I got so very close to cumming I guess I either go super wet or my muscles started contracting. Sir started whispering in my ear asking if I had come for him, and which I was so close. I said no and then he said I better finish myself off or else. For some reason the threat was really hot. He later said that I had shot out a lot of liquid into his palm. I don't think I squirted since its not something I have done. But I do get really really wet with him so maybe. Well in bed I moved to finger my clit and then I came so fast. My whole body shaking with orgasm. He laid back and came holding my hair so I could swallow him down. Then we cuddled as I panted.

Short and sweet story for you my dear blog.

The Art of a Quickie

I am sitting on my couch in the light of my tiny Christmas tree which perfectly sits in its coffee cup. I must say I rather love this little tree. It transforms my small apartment into this magical space. Anyway today thought I would give a bit of a personal story and talk about how awesome quickies are.

I did not start having sex until I was out of college. It can be well assumed by that time that I was well acquainted with my body and what I need to get off quickly, hotly and... well efficiently. I can honestly say I had it timed down to the minute; should I want to get off between class and practice. This also means that I never did that sneaking around stuff in high school. Nor did I do any hiding from roommates in college. But there is something to be said in that fast quickie with your partner.

Why I like quickies may differ from others. I think part of this has to do with the lucky talent I have at getting wet rather easily. I love the excitement of the act and pressing need in both partners. The aggressive desire and roughness often accompanied in the act. I was lucky to have a rather fun quickie recently.

I had my friend, Metronerd, over for dinner and movies. We had actually planed the evening so that us fucking would be hard to do. We are currently working on becoming better friends. I know that we work well in bed but for us we started sex quite early on in our friendship. After a yummy home cooked dinner we were both relaxing on the couch. I was warmly cuddled into the crook of his arm while we snuggled under the blanket. I am well aware that I was instigating something with my physical closeness, I had decided that I wanted to play around at some point in the night but he was sticking to the plan. But as we went into our third show on hulu I was pretty sure nothing was going to happen. My roommate was going to come home at anytime.

I knew he was fiddling around with his penis but was kindly ignoring it like you do when male friends adjust themselves. Then when the next commercial came on he roughly grabbed my hair and pulled my down to his cock. I practically started vibrating with excitement. But it was his voice that did it for me, as it often does. Calmly he just told me to "Suck." And so I did. I always love that first moment when I get a hard begging cock in in my mouth. His hand tightened in my hair and I hungrily slid him in and out of my mouth. Pushing him deep in my mouth so my nose and lips pressed against the roughness of his jeans. He pulled me up and ordered me to turn off the tv. I jumped to it and then went to go back to get more of that delicious cock in my mouth. He let me for barely a moment before he pulled me off making me stand while I whined for more.

He pulled me to my room and my heart was pounding. I was overwhelmed with want and loved how he took control in that moment. He just told me "Knees" I dropped down and started in on his cock again. Having fun at this angle to see how often I could get him to hit the back of my throat. He growled for me to strip, and I did but what made me just melt was that he added a deep "slowly." Getting yourself to move slowly when all you want is to move fast and get off is so hard. I was naked on my knees looking up at him clothed and reached down and was overwhelmed by how wet I was. The next few moments were a blur. He stripped, a condom was found, and I was on my hands and knees begging. He fucked me hard. But then just when I wanted more he pulled out. He laid down took my hair and had me take him in my mouth as he finished. So hot. I swallowed all his cum and played until he was sensitive and had me stop. It did not take much for me to orgasm after him. Just a little help with my dildo and I was left gasping.

We got dressed in under a minute. Then ran back to the living room and were making cookies as my roommate came home. I felt so very sneaky that I had to keep my self from giggling. Sitting next to him the rest of the night I felt like I had a fun naughty secret.