List of Characters in my Life. (ALWAYS ON EDIT. )

Corvallis-From Corvallis Oregon I met him from Okcupid sometime in mid 2010. He is nerdy, sweet, a year older than me and lived an hour a way. I adored him and may of fell in love with him. Sadly a long distance thing could not work out between us and I moved to Boston. I try not to dwell on how much I really liked him.
Daddydom-From the Boston area I met him through Collarme in May of 2011.As of January 2013 we have  broken up. He is a computer programmer 20 years my senior. We originally met to maybe do some nude photography. He is in an open relationship with his wife. I have met her and she is very awesome. I felt something with him early on and went with it. We are currently still dating. He is now my Daddy. In a Daddy/ lil girl thing, not so much a "little" sort of situation. More like I get to act like a child sometimes, a brat. (I love him and he loves me, this is very new to me. He makes me so happy.) ( I did not want to take the italic part out after we broke up. I am very hurt but I am hoping someday I will feel good about it.)
Dante-From Salem Oregon I met him on Fetlife sometime early 2010. He is an veteran about my age and honestly was coming off a bad break up. I was more than willing to be a rebound. He was the first real life Dom I met. He was perfect for that. I still adore him. He recently got engaged and is getting married soon! I am absolutely ecstatic for him. As of Feb 2013 he is married with a baby on the way.
Dom-From California I met him on Babblesex early 2009. He is in his mid-40's, divorced and an amazing father and baker. We first started with a textual relationship, cybering and talking. Later we moved the phone, we did a Dom/sub thing for a  while. Playing while never meeting. We became close friends and he became one of my closest confidants. He still his. As we continue talking we became less sexual and more friends. We met once in 2011 in New York. We still talk often on the phone about our lives. I trust him and love him in a non-romantic way.
Evil Twin-From the Boston area I met her on Felife through my book club in very early 2011. She is my Evil Twin because she shares my name and look strikingly like me in hair and color. We liked to play that up in a teasing way. We became good friends and I feel close to her. She is married in a monogamish/ openish relationship. I played with him and her husband, her alone and she loaned her husband to me more than one. They recently moved to Chicago and I miss her greatly.
Jae- Went on one date in April 2011. I slept with him on the first date and greatly regretted it. Lesson learned.
Lavalier- From Boston I met him on CollarMe in 2011. He was in his 50's and we did not work out. I am shamed to say I think I was tempted by his money I think. It turns out he was a little on the rapey side. We only did two dates, no sex or play.
Giles- From Boston I met him on Fetlife through my book club in early 2011 . He is my age and is a librarian.  He recently adopted an adorable baby. He is a transgender FTM gay man, that I somehow amazingly magically get to have as a lover despite my female bits. He taught me a lot about myself and gender as a whole. I am blessed to have him as a friend and lover.
Metronerd-From Boston area I met him on Okcupid in mid 2011. He is nerdy, slightly insecure at times and 3 years older than me. We dated for a very short time then were fuck buddies for a while, that ended. Now we are friends that hang out and sometimes we do kinky play with no sex. Mostly he is my good friend.
Murphy- From Boston area met him early 2012. We went on a couple dates and played once. He never called me back. Sort of an asshole. As of Feb 2013 he has contacted me and wants to set up a play date. I am unsure.
Phonesexman- From somewhere in Main started talking to him late 2009. He is my superhero of a phone sex man. He loves to make me cum. We have also become friends over the year talking about life. I have never met him but would love to.
The Salesman-From outside Boston we met in 2011. We dated for a while and then things did not work out so I had to break up him.  As of Feb 2013 it seems that he is happily married now with a baby on the way.
Sir-From Boston I met in him early 2011. He is in his 40's and can be inventively sadistic. We fucked up for a while and did not figure out how to have a thing between us. We are good now but he is in and out of the state so I don't see him often.
Teacher- Met him on Babblesex sometimes early in 2008. We have never met in person and have almost a purely textual relationship. We have done a couple cam/mic stuff but we are still friends that cyber.

My first Play party!

So My Evil Twin threw a play party and invited me. I was so excited and scared at the same time. I wanted so badly to be a good girl. Not only that but this was going to be my friends from book club and their friends. I wanted to show I was "cool" and wanted them to like me. Wanted is not a strong enough word. I needed to know I would be liked. But really since I was aware that play parties were something that could happen. I have wanted to play. I mean how many fantasies did I build up about doing anything like this. But I was shook but this real intense need to be thought of a nice, good perhaps is the better word.

So the night did not start well I was late. Not only was I late, but I was mildly lost. I had gotten on at the wrong stop on the busy. (Why are there so many Church streets in the greater Boston area!) I was still in good spirits. But after nearly 45 minutes of waiting in the snow I decided to go home. My phone was dying and I was suddenly afraid I would not be good enough. I called to let Evil know. She did not like this idea and sent a white knight to save me. I am glad I did not walk I was still very far away.

On walking in the room was oddly quiet. Not a party, a couple people were milling around. There was very yummy food out. I was worried that I had somehow come in a group of people who did not like a stranger in their mist. I turned on my charm. Which I can do quite well even when I am nervous. Plus I was fully clothed. I made new friends., lasting friends, that night. I was even invited to share a room with people at the fetish flea. I was very excited.

There was casual touching and cuddling but nothing really intense. I was comfortable and a little aroused. I was given a nice long back rub. Now I am not sure its been said on this blog yet but I am a back rub slut. I will let most anyone give me a back rub. I will almost always take my shirt off too. Which I did. Topless I am very comfortable with. I got to watch a mild spanking of a friend.

Then Miss Jack and her new Boy toy came. She instantly rose the level of energy of the party. She was all smiles and black curls. It was hard not to caught up in her. She is not my type of girl for attraction but I knew I wanted to be her friend. She and her boy went and got dolled up. Evil then tied both them up to each other. Their hands were intertwined and were looking into each other eyes. There were moments I had a hard time watching while they were flogged. Because it seemed so intimate. It was fun to watch but more than anything it made me itch with want. I loved being flogged by Salem. I wanted it so badly. I knew i was wet with arousal but my whole body wanted that relaxation that comes with intense flogging.

After Miss Jack and her Boy were done. I got up the courage to ask my Twin if she wanted to flog me. She said yes. I was ecstatic, but wanted to seem cool still. I kept my undies on and knelt on the edge of the couch. I was breathing heavy and I knew it. I was also unsure what noise I should be allowed to make. Could I act as aroused as I was? What was the correct etiquette?

She used a real thuddy toy. I knew I was trying to not to whimper and moan too much. When she knelt down against my body rubbing me up and down to ask how I was doing. I could not help it. I attacked kissed her. I pulled her like I was hungry, that I was thirsty and she was water. She was surprised but not angry. I realized later that this was my first actually flirting with her. I had secretly had a crush but had not said or acted on it in anyway. *Blush*

She continued until I was warm and fuzzy brained. Each stroke of the flog hit hard. Was a thud again my skin. When we were done I needed to be touched like I usually do. I cuddled up to her and felt so subbie to here it surprised me. I honestly had never felt this way about a girl. I normally mildly top women.

Eventually everyone left except Evil, me , Miss Jack and her boy. I am not sure how asked but I asked. And am still amazed that I did. But I asked to go down on her. So that Boy toy could watch. He said he had never seen a girl/girl in person. And how many have really? I slide down to the flood and began to lick and suck at her wet cunt. I used to fingers to really pound away at her. It was so much fun. She made adorable noises that made me want to kiss and fuck her. So I did.

After that we got to watch some fun playing with Miss Jack and her boy. Which oddly ended with my Twin and I watching from the floor as they ground against each other. Clothes on. Also by oddly I mean hot. Evil had me cuddle up against her. She started to say very naughty very evil things in my ear. About how she would force his cock down my throat. Hold me against his as she fucked me with a strap on. I HAD to masturbate. It was a very short time before a had an orgasm. On my way down from that high I realized I had the rooms attention. I blushed so hard I felt my face heat up.

After a little clean up I got to cuddle with my Twin for an hour before it was 6am! That's right my dear audience I did an all nighter. Be impressed. Then I grabbed the first bus in the am and went home.

And that was my first play party.