So I love oral.

My roommate just told me that he was having a conversation with two of our male mutual friends. One of witch said that he refuses to go down on a girl. We both had the same reaction of what the fuck! I mean really oral should come standard with any model. And I in particular love to give oral more than most sexual acts. I am a strong believer in that fact that oral sex should come standard in every model of lover. As we talked about it more though I think its just because this guy is mostly a virgin. I think that with a good lover he would go down, its hard to not want to please someone.

The other thing I learned is that one of the two guys might be pretty much a virgin. Now see I am attracted to this guy. And really the idea of of giving him a great blow job makes me very happy. I really really want to do it. I have wanted to do it for a while. See blog I pretty sure I am great at blow jobs. I want to say more but since all the feedback I have gotten is from people I have blown I may not be as wonderful as they say.

Sigh.. So I have been horny all day.

Post of kink 1

Day 1: Dom, sub, switch? What parts of BDSM interest you? Give us an interesting in-depth definition of what that means to you. Basically define your kinky self for us.

I define my self as a switch. I generally like to bottom more but I do have moments when I want top. (and I do.) I swing between being a bratty bottom to a slightly sadistic top. I do think that those three categories sort of limit a person. But I have already had my post on labels. So enough of that.

All parts of Bdsm interest me. Its the adventure. The thrill. The controlled fear. The differences, how its out of the ordinary. I like surprise. I like being pushed mentally and physically. I like being able to let go of all the thoughts in my head. To just BE. I can never do that normally. I am too Adhd to worried about things. I need that power play push to push me into just being in my body. I like how there is so many different things that turn people on. I don't always find them hot myself but I love to see people happy in what they like. I feel like this whole blog is about what interests me. This whole blog is a way of looking at myself and finding what this means to me.

Anita Blake

So I have a guilty love. I love to read some ridiculous books. The Anita Blake: Vampire hunter series is definitely one of them. I have read all 20 books, some multiple times. I even read Micah which I am pretty sure had no real plot. Despite what wiki may say. It was JUST sex. I kept waiting for a plot, but no, just sex. I mean I still read it and enjoyed it. It was fun sex. The basic story line started out well. Set in a world were most myths are true. There are vampires who know have the right to vote. There are were-animals who the world discriminant against much like early aids. Like its a decease you can catch at touch. Which you can not. There is a smattering of other fey and magical beast that appear in the series. The main character is Anita Blake she is a necromancer who is a vampire hunter and works with the cops to solve unusual crimes. OK even writing that was ridiculous. She falls in love with a vampire and a werewolf and later...well kinda lots of people. Its partially like a nice idea of poly love. LOTS of sex though. Lots of happy love and happy sex. But also killing, murder, and mystery. So I love them. I will continue to read them.

30 posts of Kink!

I was tumbling around tumbler and found this fun little writing exercise. Here is her blog http://fuckmepretty.tumblr.com. The rest of her blog does not seem to really do it for me. Though I do like photos of cute punk girls. Also knowing me this will not be done in 30 days. So we will call this 30 posts of kink.

30 Days of Kink ;)

Day 1: Dom, sub, switch? What parts of BDSM interest you? Give us an interesting in-depth definition of what that means to you. Basically define your kinky self for us.

Day 2: List your kinks.

Day 3: How did you discover you were kinky?

Day 4: Any early experiences that, in retrospect, hinted at your kinks?

Day 5: What was your first kinky sexual experience? If you haven’t had one yet, talk about what you hope to have happen.

Day 6: Describe your weirdest/most interesting sexual fantasy.

Day 7: What’s your favorite toy?

Day 8: Post a kinky image you find erotic.

Day 9: Post a kink related song or music video you enjoy.

Day 10: What are your hard limits?

Day 11: What are your views on the ethics of kink?

Day 12: Tell us about a humorous BDSM/kink experience you’ve had. If you haven’t had one, talk about aspects of kink/BDSM you find funny.

Day 13: Explain as best you can what the appeal of kink/BDSM is to you? Why are you drawn to what you’re drawn to?

Day 14: How would you say real life BDSM/kink varies from fantasy BDSM/kink? If you haven’t experienced real life BDSM/kink how do you think it might differ?

Day 15: Post a BDSM/kink activity you’re curious about and would like to try.

Day 16: What are the most difficult aspects of having a sexuality that involves kink or BDSM for you personally?

Day 17: What misconception about kinky people would you most like to clear up?

Day 18: Any kinky/BDSM pet peeves? If so, what are they?

Day 19: Any unexpected ways kink has improved your life? If so, what are they?

Day 20: Talk about something within kink/bdsm that you’re curious about/don’t understand.

Day 21: Favorite BDSM related book (fiction or non-fiction)

Day 22: What do you think is important in keeping a BDSM relationship healthy? How does it differ from a vanilla relationship?

Day 23: Since you first developed an interest in kink, have your interests/perspectives changed? How so?

Day 24: What qualities do you look for in a partner?

Day 25: How open are you about your kinks?

Day 26: What’s your opinion on online BDSM play?

Day 27: Do your non-kink interests ever find their way into your kinky activities? If so, how?

Day 28: How do you dress for kink/BDSM play? What significance does your attire have to you?

Day 29: Do you have a BDSM title (e.g. mistress, master, slut, pig, whore, princess, goddess, ma’am, sir)? What is your opinion of the use of titles in general?

Day 30: Whatever BDSM/kink related thing you want to write about.

How is that I have just recently found Go Ask Alice?

So I spent several hours today reading Go Ask Alice.

Some of the questions I read I actually already knew the answer to.

Like...Can I drink pee? Is it safe? - Well that depends on whose pee your drinking and their sexual and biological health. You can pass infection on through pee like other bodily secretions. Bottom line is yes you can if your partner is clean and healthy. Where did I learn this... Well years ago I read a dirty story that had medical links at the end. yeah for educated smut.

Speaking of ... here is some good information on fantasies.

Fantasies serve a variety of purposes. They allow people to explore elements of their sexuality that they may not be comfortable with or want to act out in their lives. Fantasies can also provide an exciting escape into something new, something taboo perhaps, or unacceptable to the fantasizer in their waking life. Some sex researchers assert that the brain is the central organ of sexual pleasure — a number of women report that they have orgasms from fantasy alone. (oh really!) When fantasizing, a person engages this powerful instrument of arousal to produce whatever experiences s/he wants to imagine — without the consequences of enacting them in real life.

There are many factors that people consider when defining their sexual identities. These include physical, emotional, and erotic attraction towards others, dreams, fantasies, social networks, relationships, and ideal sexual orientation, among others. Fantasies can be one aspect of sexual orientation or identity, but certainly not the only or defining one. That is, having same-sex or opposite-sex fantasies doesn't necessarily mean a person is gay or straight, there is a lot more to sexual orientation. Researchers now view sexuality as a spectrum, with homosexuality on one end and heterosexuality on the other. Many people fall in the middle of this spectrum; exactly where a person falls may shift throughout their life. Some argue that there are as many sexual orientations as there are people, everyone defining for themselves their own rules of attraction, fantasy, and relationships. As long as you feel comfortable with your sexuality, there is no need to define or compare yourself to a norm.

In fact, "normal" might not exist. Many sexual activities, including some we accept as normal and healthy today (masturbation to name one), have been at some time considered deviant, and in other circles accepted as completely ordinary. "Sexually normal" is a subjective term, and defined by a certain culture at a certain time. To answer your question more directly: Yes! It is normal to have fantasies about women, even though you are happily involved with a man. Other "normal" fantasies may include (but are not limited to) your partner having same-sex or opposite-sex fantasies, one or both of you fantasizing about having a threesome or group sex, fantasizing about watching your partner have sex with someone else, or switching partners with another couple — the list goes on and on!

If you have more questions about your sexuality, there are many resources available to you. At Columbia, you can check out the Columbia Queer Alliance website, which offers information, links, and contact information for GLBTQ resources at Columbia. Off-campus, Identity House provides private counseling and support regarding issues of sexual orientation. Also, try the Gay and Lesbian National Hotline to discuss any questions you may have.

You mentioned that you're happily engaged. First off, congratulations! Secondly, have you shared your same-sex fantasies with your partner? Perhaps incorporating some of those stories or fantasies into your relationship and sex life would be as exciting for him as it is for you. Your fiancé may have a secret fantasy about being with a woman who fantasizes about women — you never know!

http://www.goaskalice.columbia.edu/5919.html

Tabasco Sauce, not the best of lubes.

So my Sir was/is a bit of a sadist. Not as much as My Daddy but still likes to hurt me. Or rather I think he more got off on the humiliation of hurting me. Which is still hot. Once on coming over her had me lay, as he did. My ass in the air looking away from him on the bed. He started rubbing my ass. Making me moan and almost beg for it. I have wanted more anal from him, but he was waiting. My Sir was a bad Dom in that we did not communicate right, we had different needs emotionally and he was emotionally manipulative in a bad way. BUT he was good at fucking me. He pushed me just right. Made me squirm, cry, beg and drip. This time though he was fingering my ass and it started to burn. Started be really uncomfortable but not painful. Then he had me spend a good amount of time blowing him while he fingered my pussy. (not with Tabasco) Now know that I did not know what he put on me till after he came in my mouth. We were laying while he panted and and I asked to shower. It was only then that I found out.

So although this may sound odd, It was super hot. The not knowing was hot. The surprise, the controlled fear. I love it.

Pixelated cock, Also if I had purple hair that could be me... Kinda.

First off love this picture. Always have. I think it may be because I identify so much with her. I mean this is practically my style of topping in a picture. Its that he is in full want, begging and dripping. All the while she holding him down from moving, playing with his cock. This just looks like something I would do or have done. I also love how they are still mostly dressed. It makes me think that this was a spur of the moment deal. I like the pony tail and the way she is looking at his cock with such a happy hungry look. Like she just wants to lick and suck and play. Its so very me. This picture makes me want to play with a subby boy.

Pretty pony.

Pony girls. So I have been excited about the idea of pony girls for a very long time. I am not sure when it started. The idea of being treated like an animal is something that goes way back, to childhood playing. I was often a pet.. somthing. Pet human often. Kinky childhood me eh? Anyway back to this pretty drawing. I think this just just beautiful. I love the outfit, and want one. Its simple and yet defining. I like the gag, because really that is the only reason I define this as a pony picture. Well that and the arm banded together. I think what draws me to this is the clear lose of humanity in it with out losing the humanness. Plus the art is clean and poportianally not out of control. Over all yummy.

Valentine cuteness.

Now I try not to fall into the girl thing about valentines day. But I wont lie I love being spoiled. It makes me purr inside to be spoiled to know someone cares about me like that. Its often the little things that make me so very happy. This year I was spoiled by several thing. The Salesman got me a book. It was a very sweet thoughtful gift. He knows I read a lot and its a BDSM book called Mercy. Its looks like a love/smut story. I purred with the thoughtfulness of it. Then a couple days later Metronerd got me a rose and a snuggie! I actually love my snugglie. Its purple and has peace signs on it. Adorable right! He said he was getting his mom a rose too and got me one as well. This was super sweet especially since we are doing the JUST friends game.

I like being spoiled.

Sir snippett.

Do you ever notice its the little things your remember? The things that make a future masturbation session memory are small. Not the over reaching what was done or when or how. But the little things that just sort of shot though you with the hotness of it.

I was thinking about this one time when I played with Sir. He had a wonderful habit of spanking me with his belt. He also had a very particular way of wanting me to lay ass in the air, hands spread out just so. Sometimes he liked me to reach back and spread myself open for him. Mostly I think for watching me do it. For me submitting to it. And strangely I liked the ritual of it. I needed him to talk me. I always need that with Ds. LOTS of talking. But this once he has me lay on the floor waiting for him. Unable to see what he was doing I knew he was getting undressed and even in that I grew wet. Then he wrapped his belt around my neck, using that to pull me up. I remember gasping and whimpering all at once. Unsure what the proper response was, unsure of my own thoughts on it. My mind warring with the safety of the act and the hotness of it. He used that to pull me what must of only been 3 feet at most of my hands and knees. At the edge of the bed I moved to sit up thinking that was what he wanted. It was not. He spanked me hard and pushed me back down. Even now I feel my pussy react to the thought of that.

I have used that moment many times hand on my clit, eyes closed. I hope I never forget those little things.

How is that I have just recently found Go Ask Alice?

So I spent like 3 hours today reading Go ask Alice responses. Between that and Scarlett teen it riles in me a want to help people. To educate the populace. Especially teens and college kids. Also I want to like hand out condoms everywhere I go.

In college I was able to do this. My junior year I went to the health center and asked for some condoms for my dorm. They gave me a bag of like 100 condoms. For free! Sometimes when I am buying condoms now I think about going back and seeing if I can get another.

http://www.goaskalice.columbia.edu/Cat7.html

http://www.scarleteen.com/

A scene I want to play.

Found an old email from my dear old Dom.

Speaking of being good, I want to tell you that this morning on the train ride in to work, I was daydreaming about licking your pussy. In my mind, you were standing with your back against the cold wall of my bedroom, your arms lifted over your head, wrists bound and attached to some sort of strong hook in the wall up there. You were able to stand on tiptoe, but otherwise you were pretty helpless when I groped, stroked, licked, and bit your tender body from head to toe, before settling there between your legs. It would be so fun to tease you with my tongue and fingers that way, knowing that in your position you couldn't really bear down with any pressure. The intensity would be utterly under my control, as my tongue slurped and slid and snaked, as my fingers prodded and penetrated and twisted. In my imagination, you were sometimes lifting your legs up off the ground to try and give me deeper access, and I responded by driving a pair of fingers into that now-dripping cunt, curling them toward your gspot, and grinding the flat of my tongue hard against your clit. I'd love to slip another finger into your tight ass too, and growl into you, vibrating my tongue over that needy pulsating clit until you cum, panting and moaning.

I have not always liked the idea of having someone go down on me. I was worried about how I may taste. Despite that I have tasted myself many times. I was really worried for a long time about how I looked. I don't have that porn star looking vulva. I have longer inner labia. Which I love now but really was worried for a long time. But its little things like this email and the wonderful men I have had sex with that make me feel so pretty down there.

Words

Bitch

Whore

Cunt

Slut

Why do I both get angry and turned on by this words at different times.

What does that say about me?

I both know as a feminist and Sex positive girl that these words can be good and bad.

In my head I know its OK to get off on being someone "Dirty little whore" a "naughty slut."

Yet I know it hurts to be called a slut in a non sexy way. It hurts a lot.

Am I taking back the words? Remaking them mine? Reclaiming them for my identity.

Or am I just playing into society ques at what a woman is, the Madonna/whore complex. That I can be one or the other. That for the sex I crave, I need to be the whore.

Why do when I am just am coming down from a great orgasm feel the need to THINK about these questions instead of just feel.

My first Play party!

So My Evil Twin threw a play party and invited me. I was so excited and scared at the same time. I wanted so badly to be a good girl. Not only that but this was going to be my friends from book club and their friends. I wanted to show I was "cool" and wanted them to like me. Wanted is not a strong enough word. I needed to know I would be liked. But really since I was aware that play parties were something that could happen. I have wanted to play. I mean how many fantasies did I build up about doing anything like this. But I was shook but this real intense need to be thought of a nice, good perhaps is the better word.

So the night did not start well I was late. Not only was I late, but I was mildly lost. I had gotten on at the wrong stop on the busy. (Why are there so many Church streets in the greater Boston area!) I was still in good spirits. But after nearly 45 minutes of waiting in the snow I decided to go home. My phone was dying and I was suddenly afraid I would not be good enough. I called to let Evil know. She did not like this idea and sent a white knight to save me. I am glad I did not walk I was still very far away.

On walking in the room was oddly quiet. Not a party, a couple people were milling around. There was very yummy food out. I was worried that I had somehow come in a group of people who did not like a stranger in their mist. I turned on my charm. Which I can do quite well even when I am nervous. Plus I was fully clothed. I made new friends., lasting friends, that night. I was even invited to share a room with people at the fetish flea. I was very excited.

There was casual touching and cuddling but nothing really intense. I was comfortable and a little aroused. I was given a nice long back rub. Now I am not sure its been said on this blog yet but I am a back rub slut. I will let most anyone give me a back rub. I will almost always take my shirt off too. Which I did. Topless I am very comfortable with. I got to watch a mild spanking of a friend.

Then Miss Jack and her new Boy toy came. She instantly rose the level of energy of the party. She was all smiles and black curls. It was hard not to caught up in her. She is not my type of girl for attraction but I knew I wanted to be her friend. She and her boy went and got dolled up. Evil then tied both them up to each other. Their hands were intertwined and were looking into each other eyes. There were moments I had a hard time watching while they were flogged. Because it seemed so intimate. It was fun to watch but more than anything it made me itch with want. I loved being flogged by Salem. I wanted it so badly. I knew i was wet with arousal but my whole body wanted that relaxation that comes with intense flogging.

After Miss Jack and her Boy were done. I got up the courage to ask my Twin if she wanted to flog me. She said yes. I was ecstatic, but wanted to seem cool still. I kept my undies on and knelt on the edge of the couch. I was breathing heavy and I knew it. I was also unsure what noise I should be allowed to make. Could I act as aroused as I was? What was the correct etiquette?

She used a real thuddy toy. I knew I was trying to not to whimper and moan too much. When she knelt down against my body rubbing me up and down to ask how I was doing. I could not help it. I attacked kissed her. I pulled her like I was hungry, that I was thirsty and she was water. She was surprised but not angry. I realized later that this was my first actually flirting with her. I had secretly had a crush but had not said or acted on it in anyway. *Blush*

She continued until I was warm and fuzzy brained. Each stroke of the flog hit hard. Was a thud again my skin. When we were done I needed to be touched like I usually do. I cuddled up to her and felt so subbie to here it surprised me. I honestly had never felt this way about a girl. I normally mildly top women.

Eventually everyone left except Evil, me , Miss Jack and her boy. I am not sure how asked but I asked. And am still amazed that I did. But I asked to go down on her. So that Boy toy could watch. He said he had never seen a girl/girl in person. And how many have really? I slide down to the flood and began to lick and suck at her wet cunt. I used to fingers to really pound away at her. It was so much fun. She made adorable noises that made me want to kiss and fuck her. So I did.

After that we got to watch some fun playing with Miss Jack and her boy. Which oddly ended with my Twin and I watching from the floor as they ground against each other. Clothes on. Also by oddly I mean hot. Evil had me cuddle up against her. She started to say very naughty very evil things in my ear. About how she would force his cock down my throat. Hold me against his as she fucked me with a strap on. I HAD to masturbate. It was a very short time before a had an orgasm. On my way down from that high I realized I had the rooms attention. I blushed so hard I felt my face heat up.

After a little clean up I got to cuddle with my Twin for an hour before it was 6am! That's right my dear audience I did an all nighter. Be impressed. Then I grabbed the first bus in the am and went home.

And that was my first play party.

How do my birth control pills work....?

Planned Parenthood

Now there are several types of birth control.

I am on the pill. Which gives me 3 weeks off and 1 week on. Even in this type there are several different kinds that give varying levels of hormones. All I can really remember is that my body tricks itself into thinking its pregnant for a while so I don't ovulate. So when I went to go start reading this I realized I did not know the actual chemical workings of how the pill works. I was ashamed of myself, bad chemist, bad pharmacy tech, So I went to reading. Really the best answers I found were at Ask Alice. Below is her response.

Alice,
How do birth control pills work?

—Woman




Dear Woman,

Birth control pills prevent pregnancy through several mechanisms, mainly by stopping ovulation. If no egg is released, there is nothing to be fertilized by sperm, and the woman cannot get pregnant. Most birth control pills contain synthetic forms of two female hormones: estrogen and progestin. These synthetic hormones stabilize a woman's natural hormone levels, and prevent estrogen from peaking mid-cycle. Without the estrogen bump, the pituitary gland does not release other hormones that normally cause the ovaries to release mature eggs.

Specifically, synthetic estrogen in the pill works to:

Stop the pituitary gland from producing follicle stimulating hormone (FSH) and luteinizing hormone (LH) in order to prevent ovulation
Support the uterine lining (endometrium) to prevent breakthrough bleeding mid-cycle
Meanwhile, synthetic progestin works to:

Stop the pituitary gland from producing LH in order to prevent egg release
Make the uterine lining inhospitable to a fertilized egg
Partially limit the sperm's ability to fertilize the egg
Thicken the cervical mucus to hinder sperm movement (although this effect may not be key to preventing pregnancy)
There are two kinds of hormonal birth control pills: (1) the combination pill which contains estrogen and progestin and (2) the progestin-only pill (known as the minipill). Combo pills are significantly more effective than progestin-only pills and have the added benefit of less breakthrough bleeding. However, some women cannot tolerate estrogen and prefer the progestin-only pill. Both types of pills are available in several different brands, each of which have slightly different blends of hormones.

These two kinds of hormonal birth control are available in other forms besides pills. The combination formula is also available as a patch and a vaginal ring. The progestin-only formula is also available in intramuscular shots (Depo-Provera), an implant (Implanon), in intrauterine devices (the Mirena IUD).

Some women may prefer these other forms of hormonal birth control because they can be taken less often (and consequently are easier to remember). While birth control pills must be taken everyday, the patch is only applied once per week, the vaginal ring only once per month, and the intramuscular shot only once every 3 months. An IUD is inserted into the uterus and can prevent pregnancy for five years or more. In the US, hormonal birth control pills and devices are only available by prescription. Women may want to ask a gynecologist or women's health care provider for information about different kinds of birth control, including which methods would be best for them personally. Students at Columbia can make an appointment at Primary Care Medical Services by calling x4-2284 or visiting Open Communicator.

If you choose birth control pills (which are sometimes the cheapest form of birth control), it is very important to take the pills at the same time everyday. This creates a more stable level of hormones in your body. When you forget your pill (or take it 3 to 4 hours late or more), this causes a dip in your body's levels of the birth control hormones. If you forget your pill one day, you may need to take two pills the next day, which will cause a spike in your body's levels of the birth control hormones. To maximize protection against pregnancy and to minimize side effects, pick a time you are likely to remember (maybe first thing in the morning or right before bed) and take your pill this same time everyday.

Finally, birth control pills traditionally come in packs of 21 or 28 pills. Both types of packs contain 21 active pills. The 7 extra pills in the 28-pill pack are placebo pills which are there to remind you to continue taking one pill everyday and to remind you when to begin the next pack. Whether you take placebo pills or simply wait 7 days to start the next pack, the 7-day break from hormones triggers monthly bleeding that mimics a woman's menstrual period. Women are still protected from pregnancy during this time as long as they have taken all the active pills consistently and correctly. For more details, take a look at Why do I menstruate while on birth control? in Go Ask Alice! archive for Sexual Health.

New brands of birth control pills have been approved by the Food and Drug Administration (like Seasonale) which allow women to have their "period" fewer times per year. Seasonale packs come with 84 active pills followed by a placebo week so the woman bleeds only 4 times per year. For more info, check out Delaying your period through oral contraceptives in the Go Ask Alice! Sexual Health archive. If you're interested in using hormonal birth control, speak with your health care provider about which method would suit you best. Take care.

(http://www.goaskalice.columbia.edu/0663.html)

I personally am on the 28 day cycle ones with both types of hormones. The first month was rough but I am happy now.

WARNING BELOW IS NOT A SEXY STORY>

Scary story from my first month on my pill. I though I was having a miscarriage, honest. I actually called in to work sick. Something I never do. I felt nauseas and gross all morning. This was in the days when I started work at 3pm. I took a bath to relax my back muscles which were freaking out with cramps. I past a blood clot. Which are pretty normal in smaller sizes. There are parts of the lining. This was was huge. Bigger than the size of my palm. And it was not just the normal red color. There was also like clear and skin toned. I was sure I was dying. So I calmly freaked out. Now that may be an understatement. Its been over a year and I still remember that gut wrenching fear. I got dressed called to work sick. And then called my mom. (No answer) Then spent like 2 hours scoring the internet to see if I was having a miscarriage. Finally I grew a pair and called my gyno. She calmly let me know I was no dying in fact that it's quite normal for the first couple months. That if it does not go away after 3 we will change types of Birth control. I calmed down a lot after that. Then end.

I love Birth Control.

There are so many reasons that I love Birth Control. Here are just a few.

1. No babies in my belly. (I want a baby someday, just not anytime soon at all. )

2. Knowing for a fact the day my cycle starts. (I can plan when I can have my cycle so I am not on during a play party)

3. Have a cycle that only lasts a week. (I used to have a cycle that was 2-3 week on 1 week off. It was so horrible.)

4. Cramps seem to be magnified for 2 days. (Read that as only 2 days)

5. Decreased limbido. (Now this may sound crazy. But I was overtly sexual and had no outlet for years. Having it decreased just this little much has made it so I am manageable. )

6. Mood swings are set almost to a chart. I can more properly blame my hormones.

7. Did I mention I feel less worried about sex? That I can let myself be the sex positive slut I want to be.

More tomorrow on types.

A little bit of Office Smut.

I want you to see yourself looking over the tops of the heads while they do their busy work walking back and forth outside your door. You are sitting at your desk tapping for fingers, watching the clock and then your screen working on some rather boring papers.When you look over and see a flash of brown hair from the window; thinking nothing of it you go back to work. You have a break hour, which you plan to do nothing, eat maybe. You are looking intently at computer, very involved with some little thing. When you hear the door open and then close, you turn to tell the person that you are on break but stop halfway through your sentence; your eyebrows raise when you see me. I smile and tell you I got you lunch, thus pointing to the cloth sack I hold in my hands. The weather is rather nice outside and I am wearing a white top that v necks in front and back quite low, and under that a nice red thin strap tank top. I have one of my pashmina's around my neck loosely. I am wearing my school girl skirt, (because I like to dress up) which is plaid tan and brown with the same red as my shirt in there too. I am wearing my red necklace which is a bit of a choker but looks like candied cherries. I am wearing modest red heals with ankle straps.

I walk over to you my shoes clicking on the floor and lean on and sit on a desk and start to unpack your lunch, and mine of course. A door slams somewhere and I jump a little and look around, the place is practically empty, I stand on my tip toes and look out the door, and action not really needed as I am plenty tall with my shoes and my own height. But sort of one of those thought things you just do. I turn around looking for you, who while I was prancing around looking at the room as open the soda and taking a sip, you look at me and my evil grin, "What?' you ask eyes narrowing a little

'Well" I say walking around the room pulling down the convenient shutters to the window "you say you have a whole hour break?"

I walk up to you. I lean in and kiss your lips softly. "All I need is a few moments, can you spare me some?" I drag my teeth down your jaw line even as you turn to look at the door, which has a window on it. "Come on" I pull you with both hands to the desk, a place that cannot be seen very well by the window at the door. My hands pulling at you shirt I slide them under to your skin as I sit on your lap and kiss your neck. I let my hands move through your hair pulling on it a little to expose your neck so I can kiss it; I move your collared shirt aside so I can move lower onto your chest. My hips straddling yours my skirt riding up a little on me as I bite right below the exposed skin area so no one will see. I move my mouth back up to yours as you gasp a little loudly. I kiss you hard and strong and then full of panting, "shh, you don't want anyone to hear do you?' I kiss you softly on the lips and then fix your shirt so you look presentable then I slide off your body slowly moving to kneel in between your legs. I slide so that my hands on your thighs and I am almost completely under the table. I move my hands to undo your pants just freeing your hardening cock, I move my hands up and down on you lightly feather touching it. I lean in and help your cock into my mouth sucking on it so that it moves into my throat, wetting it completely. I start to suck on your cock while my fingers move to play with your balls, and one hand lightly strokes your cock up and down. You let out a small whimper/moan as I graze my teeth on your cock lightly. I pull off my hand moving to play with the head of your cock, thumb pressing on it, "shhh." I engulf your cock completely in my mouth moving sucking on and off at rhythm keeping you’re warm in my mouth while my hands move at you balls and thighs. I bob my head a couple times and then nuzzle my face in tight as I suck on you. Sucking and swallowing as much spit and precum as I can to keep you still clean. I move my mouth so that you press into my throat gagging me just a bit. You let out a gasp and grab my hair pushing me down harder………...when the door opens.

I freeze as you sit up straight and fold you hand on the desk grabbing a pencil to look like you are doing Sudoku( quick thinker you are). Your other hand sliding up from its place on my head to take your drink. Sipping it. It is the guy from next door also on break, "Just seeing how you are doing, Was going to go across the street and pick up some food, But it seems your good. Want me to pick you up anything?” All you can do is shake your head as I slowly press my tongue to the underside of your cock; moving my head so slowly. Your co-worker leans against the door jam, " How has your day been so far? I know you had a rather busy schedule yesterday." You smile and perhaps a bit loudly exclaim, "Well its be rather nice," I move my head a little slowly sucking you. "I" you pause. "I think I got everything under control, " I graze my teeth on the head of your cock. You reach down and grab my hair; hard. Pulling on it so I want out a noise but I can’t. "I truly appreciate you offer though, for the lunch and all. " I suck a little and you take a breath slowly. "I will keep it in mind for later though." You tighten you grip on my hair and I suck on you, trying not to make a gurgling noise as you push my head down on your cock.

The guy is looking at you oddly, and I run my hand up your pant leg, "Sorry I have a bit of a muscle cramp, from baseball." you shake you leg making me drop it. This just moves me to your balls I move them side to side softly playing with the skin “I took some Ibuprofen. It should fine soon." You then give your best smile. “I guess I am sort of out of it,” you grab my hand pinching me and making me stop. “I am sure I will be fine.” I suck on your cock moving my mouth up and down slowly. "Well if you need me, I will be next door after lunch I have some pain pills should you need them. Feel free to just ask." the guy then turns and leaves the room, as the door shuts I start to move my mouth faster and faster on your cock. Dropping the pencil so fast it slides across your desk; you grab my hair with both hands as I suck you down into my throat. You start to fuck my throat hard, pushing your hips up into me, using me. Fucking me. And owning my mouth. Balls slapping against my chin as you work your way in and out of me.

Then you cum biting your lip to not cry out, grasping the chair, bucking your hips up and off the chair while your hand holds me in place. I swallow it all, licking my lips and your cock clean. I carefully put you...away and crawl out from the desk, straightening my skirt and top, desperately trying to fix my once cute hair. You sit at the desk breathing heavy. I give up on my hair and put it up in a crazy bun/pony. I grab my soda and sit on the edge of your desk, I lean over and give you a kiss lightly on the mouth and then take a sip of soda. "So that was fun" I say smirking. You laugh and grab my shirt pulling me down to kiss you again, and then we eat of food and share a pumpkin bar (home made!) the bell rings and I sneak out getting a weird look from a male co-worker as I walk out of the room.

Adventures in accidental arousal.

When I first thought about writing a sex blog I wanted to have a running account of the amount of times when I became aroused on accident. When I first moved in with the roommate it happened a lot. I was living with a guy (just a friend) and was not getting any for a long time. Not only that but I had this fear about masturbating while he was awake. This fear is still mostly there, I am a stealth ninja masturbater when needed. Be impressed. It should be noted that my housemate and I are not nor ever going to be sexually together in any sense. He is like my best friend and we don't see it that way. We have talked about it. Anyways I feel like so often I get aroused at surprising moments. So here is one for today; a really old one actually from last year after I moved in with my housemate.

Now here is something that is very true. I get lost in a paperbag when driving. I really have a hard time. Even with a GPS and written instructions I sometimes freak out and take wrong turns. I have more than one gone down a one way the wrong way. So when I drive in big cities, like Boston or Portland, in traffic I try not to show it but I freak out. My heart and my body just does not like whats happening. Anyway so I was driving in the rain, in traffic at dusk with a group of people and was trying not to show how much I was not a happy camper. When my house mate started to give me very clear calm instructions on what to do. And then added some good jobs in there. I was aroused and that bothered me. I could feel myself getting there and I did not like why. It was the tone of his voice, the clear authority and calmness to it. Hard to explain. This was also well before he knew I was kinky in anysense of the word. He knows me from college where I was a really good girl and barely kissed anyone let alone asked someone to beat me with a flog.