Words

Bitch

Whore

Cunt

Slut

Why do I both get angry and turned on by this words at different times.

What does that say about me?

I both know as a feminist and Sex positive girl that these words can be good and bad.

In my head I know its OK to get off on being someone "Dirty little whore" a "naughty slut."

Yet I know it hurts to be called a slut in a non sexy way. It hurts a lot.

Am I taking back the words? Remaking them mine? Reclaiming them for my identity.

Or am I just playing into society ques at what a woman is, the Madonna/whore complex. That I can be one or the other. That for the sex I crave, I need to be the whore.

Why do when I am just am coming down from a great orgasm feel the need to THINK about these questions instead of just feel.