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Day 7: What’s your favorite toy?

Currently my favorite toy was a gift from Phonesexman. Its a purple g-spot toy and it very fun and vibrates. It hits my spot just right and I love it. Its a long handle with a egg on the end.

That my favorite right now. 

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Day 6: Describe your weirdest/most interesting sexual fantasy.

This is silly. I don't think I have the most weird or most interesting. I have so many and I think its all in perspective. They are not all that weird to me any more. I feel like the ones I am most uncomfortable with are the dark ones. So here are a couple for fun.
*Being tied up like a dog and treated like one. Dog bowl, tied up outside, spanked with a leash.
*Being held down and fucked in the ass. ( a varsity sport I have not quite mastered yet)
* I want to use a fucking machine and give a blow job at the same time.
* I want to have a 4 some with 3 other men.
* Gangbang
* To do fireplay
* To be paid for sex, or sex things.
And that's enough for now.

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Post of Kink 5: What was your first kinky sexual experience?

Well I think this one is hard for me. It kind of depend on how you define kink. Personally its all depends on my thoughts that day. Sometimes I think it was that first time I did anything sexual. My first full naked experience was a three-some. My first hand-job was to a gay man that I kind of topped. Was it the first time I was flogged? Spanked? The first time I had sex in front of a crowd? Or maybe it was before I had sex with others? I mean my mental landscape for masturbation has always been rather kinky. I think I have always been kinky, my sexual mind and body is twisted in that way.  

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Any early experiences that, in retrospect, hinted at your kinks. 


I feel like honestly this could be my whole childhood. Because after all almost anything can be twisted. Being tied up by the neighbor just so he could rescue me later. My sister and I taking turns tying each other up. Playing as a pet. All pretend can be bdsm. Bdsm is playing cops and robbers with your pants. off. 

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Day 3: How did you discover you were kinky?

        I think this is a deeply personal question. Delves into the idea of self. It's a bit loaded. I think I may have always been kinky but I am not sure if that is my self shaping my past memory. Or if my early life shaped my ideas on sex. 

        I think part of what shaped this idea was what I read. I thoroughly believe that nerd/geeks are attracted to different lifestyles and sexual set ups because of books and comics. They opened my eyes to all the different ways a relationships can be formed, and though I stills saw them as fantasy a little bit of hope was born. 

        I used to play pretend with things that border on the kink. Being a pet was something I constantly played with in my head. It was almost always forced too. Trapped or experimented on. I liked to tie people up or be tied up. But I think those games are rather normal really. What child never tied up their sibling? Then as I began to masturbate my fantasies were never boy and girl sneak off and make out adorably. They were darker. Fucking roughly over a car in an alley. Face fucking till he cums and I swallow. Tied up and fucked by cold machines. Unfeeling and using me. That last one was a favorite. It has oh so many variants. I am pretty sure for years that these were not the normal sexual masturbation fantasies. I new at a certain point that they were not Crazy with a capital C.

.But I also knew I was not on the same level as my friends. I did not think about sex the same. I felt different. And that kept me a virgin for a long time. I was an excellent cock blocker to myself. I would think about it too much and then leave/run away. 
        
      Is was not until I was out of school that I started to let myself think I could actually have those things I always wanted. That I was adult enough, brave enough and smart enough to do it right. I listened to Dan Savage and he told me about fetlife. Thank you Dan Savage from there I took the baby steps to where I am now. 

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Day 2: List your kinks.

Really... I mean this would be something that I feel I would add to all the time. I will just copy and past my current list on fetlife.

Into: dan savage (everything to do with it), "being petted till I fall asleep" (receiving), aftercare (everything to do with it), bare bottom belt spanking (receiving), bare handed spanking (receiving), being bathed and having my hair washed (receiving), being caned (receiving), being told i'm a good girl (receiving), being treated like a beautiful princess but fucked like a dirty little whore (receiving), biting (everything to do with it), candle wax (receiving), cuddling (everything to do with it), cuddling naked (everything to do with it), eddie izzard (watching), face fucking (receiving), feeling wanted and appreciated (receiving), flogging (receiving), hair pulling (receiving), intelligence (everything to do with it), masturbation (everything to do with it), mutual masturbation (everything to do with it), oral sex (everything to do with it), showering together (everything to do with it), sleeping naked (everything to do with it), spanking (receiving), talking dirty (everything to do with it), xkcd (watching).

Curious about: forced masturbation (receiving), "the look" that tells you in no uncertain terms that you have crossed the line and earned a spanking (receiving), anal sex (receiving), ass play, belt spanking (receiving), bondage, cmnf, collar and lead/leash (wearing), dildos, discipline (receiving), impact play (receiving), lingerie, nyotaimori (wearing), pantyhose/stockings, power exchange, remote-control devices (receiving), sensory deprivation (receiving), whips.

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Day 1: Dom, sub, switch? What parts of BDSM interest you? Give us an interesting in-depth definition of what that means to you. Basically define your kinky self for us.

I define my self as a switch. I generally like to bottom more but I do have moments when I want top. (and I do.) I swing between being a bratty bottom to a slightly sadistic top. I do think that those three categories sort of limit a person. But I have already had my post on labels. So enough of that.

All parts of Bdsm interest me. Its the adventure. The thrill. The controlled fear. The differences, how its out of the ordinary. I like surprise. I like being pushed mentally and physically. I like being able to let go of all the thoughts in my head. To just BE. I can never do that normally. I am too Adhd to worried about things. I need that power play push to push me into just being in my body. I like how there is so many different things that turn people on. I don't always find them hot myself but I love to see people happy in what they like. I feel like this whole blog is about what interests me. This whole blog is a way of looking at myself and finding what this means to me.

30 posts of Kink!

I was tumbling around tumbler and found this fun little writing exercise. Here is her blog http://fuckmepretty.tumblr.com. The rest of her blog does not seem to really do it for me. Though I do like photos of cute punk girls. Also knowing me this will not be done in 30 days. So we will call this 30 posts of kink.

30 Days of Kink ;)

Day 1: Dom, sub, switch? What parts of BDSM interest you? Give us an interesting in-depth definition of what that means to you. Basically define your kinky self for us.

Day 2: List your kinks.

Day 3: How did you discover you were kinky?

Day 4: Any early experiences that, in retrospect, hinted at your kinks?

Day 5: What was your first kinky sexual experience? If you haven’t had one yet, talk about what you hope to have happen.

Day 6: Describe your weirdest/most interesting sexual fantasy.

Day 7: What’s your favorite toy?

Day 8: Post a kinky image you find erotic.

Day 9: Post a kink related song or music video you enjoy.

Day 10: What are your hard limits?

Day 11: What are your views on the ethics of kink?

Day 12: Tell us about a humorous BDSM/kink experience you’ve had. If you haven’t had one, talk about aspects of kink/BDSM you find funny.

Day 13: Explain as best you can what the appeal of kink/BDSM is to you? Why are you drawn to what you’re drawn to?

Day 14: How would you say real life BDSM/kink varies from fantasy BDSM/kink? If you haven’t experienced real life BDSM/kink how do you think it might differ?

Day 15: Post a BDSM/kink activity you’re curious about and would like to try.

Day 16: What are the most difficult aspects of having a sexuality that involves kink or BDSM for you personally?

Day 17: What misconception about kinky people would you most like to clear up?

Day 18: Any kinky/BDSM pet peeves? If so, what are they?

Day 19: Any unexpected ways kink has improved your life? If so, what are they?

Day 20: Talk about something within kink/bdsm that you’re curious about/don’t understand.

Day 21: Favorite BDSM related book (fiction or non-fiction)

Day 22: What do you think is important in keeping a BDSM relationship healthy? How does it differ from a vanilla relationship?

Day 23: Since you first developed an interest in kink, have your interests/perspectives changed? How so?

Day 24: What qualities do you look for in a partner?

Day 25: How open are you about your kinks?

Day 26: What’s your opinion on online BDSM play?

Day 27: Do your non-kink interests ever find their way into your kinky activities? If so, how?

Day 28: How do you dress for kink/BDSM play? What significance does your attire have to you?

Day 29: Do you have a BDSM title (e.g. mistress, master, slut, pig, whore, princess, goddess, ma’am, sir)? What is your opinion of the use of titles in general?

Day 30: Whatever BDSM/kink related thing you want to write about.